Not everyone will be happy for you the way you may be happy for them.
We live in a day and age where we constantly tell people what we are doing. Not everyone wants the best for you. Jealousy and envy is real, even from people you would least expect.
I think that everyone should benefit off your kindness, however I feel that not everyone deserves to know certain bits of information about you. Not everyone will be happy for you, not everyone will appreciate that you told them a certain thing. I’m quite a private person, and wont talk about my personal life except with those whom I feel comfortable with, and even then, I limit what I tell them. It’s not because I don’t trust them, nor do I have anything to hide, but because there are things in my life which people will never understand.
I think one or two people (my sister and/or best friend) know that I blog and LOVE writing. They may have even forgotten because I told them so long ago and I never talk about it. It may sound silly, but I feel like people don’t deserve to know that I love writing. Truth is, all my life everyone but a very few have always put me down, underestimated me and never took me seriously when I said I want to do so and so. Maybe because everyone else is a talker not a doer, they’ve placed me in the same category. If people that knew me came across my blog, they would probably never guess it was me, despite the familiarity in my life experiences that I have shared.
I like staying somewhat anonymous on here, but one of my life goals is to write a book. And I don’t know how I feel about my name being over this non-anonymous book! Which may contain personal experiences, so much for being a private person! I just think I have something worth sharing (I may be wrong), and I just want to prove to myself that I can do this.
On a completely unrelated side note! I am SO excited for Ramadan. And I think we should all try to make changes now instead of waiting, even though I can almost smell it, it’s that close! There is no guarantee that either of us will live to see Ramadan, or be in a healthy state. SubhanAllah. On that topic, I visited a friend today who is sick (although temporary), it made me think about how health can be taken away at any instant. Crazy isn’t it. One day we’re here, the next day we’re not.
Last week I got pretty sick with a cold, it’s winter now in Australia, so flu season is here. And I thought ‘wow, we don’t appreciate our health until it has declined’, even for those few days, simple tasks became difficult. And do we appreciate the beauty of health when we are better? How Great is Allah swt, we are ungrateful, yet He still feeds and clothes us, Alhamdulillah.
Back to my original post, not everything about you should be shared. Even those whom you think will support you, might not. In fact, they may even do the opposite by discouraging you to follow your dreams and passions.
Speaking of passions; last night I met a sister who came here from overseas on a research visa. She came here to do her PhD funded by her university, in a career she doesn’t even want to pursue. She is 35 and is doing it because of the pressure of her parents. She told me about how her dream job is in children’s illustration. The way she spoke about the love she has for art was inspiring, yet sad at the same time. Life is too short to live it for people, even your parents. Live life in the pursuit of attaining Allah’s pleasure first, and then follow your passion no matter how difficult it may be.
I have gone off on way too many tangents. I guess this is what happens when you’re still writing at almost 1 a.m.
1. Keep some things to yourself, not everyone deserves a piece of your life.
2. Appreciate your health and everything else before it is taken away from you. And, don’t wait until Ramadan to make a change. Life is short. Death is unexpected.
3. I am weird and have trust issues.
4. Follow your dreams! As corny as it sounds, live life for you!
As always, reminder to myself before anyone.