Privacy 

“There’s this idea that if other people don’t know you’re doing something, it has no value,”

Wow, how true is this statement?!

Every time we are doing something, whether it’s going skydiving or sitting on the couch, we feel the need to inform our friends/family and even strangers via social media. And I know this because people sometimes post the most pointless things, including myself. Down to the point of having a cup of coffee, watching TV, reading a book, and even private conversations and moments with their other half. Isn’t a little freaky that people know our every move, our routine, the coffee we order, or our grandmothers name. Personally, I like to keep my Facebook and Snapchat quite private whereas I am a little more lenient with Instagram because I post a lot of Islamic reminders etc. To think that a lot of people have strangers on all social media outlets and post really personal moments, is a little weird when you think about it.

Can you imagine living in the early 1800’s (before technology took over) and making a conscious effort to tell all the people in your street what you ate for breakfast. I know times have changed! But when it’s put that way, it sounds quite strange. 

I think it’s great how technology has evolved, however, I’m not so sure that we’re making the best use out of it. And I think this is where the religious aspect comes in. Personally, I struggle with the amount of time I spend on social media. I am a social media addict, and I don’t even know why. I don’t post much, yet I seem to be wasting so much time on my phone, constantly scrolling through an endless feed. This is something I’m working on. I just think, the amount of time I spent on these apps, I could have potentially memorized some verses of the Qur’an, or even read it at the very least. I could have sought knowledge which would benefit me in both this world and my hereafter. 

We will be asked how we spent our time on the Day of Judgement. We will be asked if we sought Knowledge and what we did with that knowledge. We can definately use social media to build our akhira by seeking knowledge, posting reminders and things we’ve learnt. Are we doing this or are we using social media to destroy our akhira? 

I for one, love taking photos of things that I am doing. This is so I can look back at good memories (because my memory is shocking lately). But sometimes I think that we spend too much time trying to capture things with our phones, rather than taking in the moment. Something interesting I read:

“You’ll be less likely to remember things if you spend the whole time taking pictures, rather than taking it all in.”

Everything we do should be done in moderation. One of shaytans tactics is to make us waste time on things that are permissible. Let’s make a conscious effort to use our time wisely inshaaAllah. 

(Reminder to myself first)

Gratitude

I feel like we are so accustomed to looking at what we don’t have, rather than focusing on what we do have. This is a struggle I face almost on a daily basis, getting sad over things that I have not yet attained. And then I stop and remember the things I should be grateful for.

If only we instantly looked at those who are less fortunate than us like we are supposed to, instead of looking at those who have more and wanting what they have. I’m not a materialistic person, but sometimes there are things that I want that I feel would be great use if I had it. However, through the constant use of social media, we are bombarded with content (videos, images, statuses etc) of others’ lives that have or pretend to have fancy things. And our instinct is to want the same or similar thing.

This has created such a dangerous mindset. How to overcome it is the big question.

One of the things I learnt attending weekend Islamic courses, is that there are two elements to a happy life. Gratitude and Patience. It’s so easy to lose sight of this, shaytan knows what he’s doing, therefore he will try to make us lose hope in Allah swt. Which is the last thing we need to be doing. Instead of being down about all the things that we don’t have, or the one thing that we have been trying to get for so long, we need to remember the things we do have. Even what seems to be the smallest and simplest of things. We can remember the fact that we have a house, clean water, and plenty of food in the fridge AND pantry, Alhamdulillah. And we should also remember the blessing of being able to walk, talk, see, hear, and are able to use all of our limbs Alhamdulillah. We should be grateful for all the people that we have in our life, even though sometimes they drive us mad. We should be grateful for all the people that are no longer in our lives even though we wanted them to be.

“And He gave you from all you asked of Him. And if you should count the favor of Allah , you could not enumerate them. Indeed, mankind is [generally] most unjust and ungrateful.” (Qur’an 14:34)

How powerful is that? We should be grateful for everything that we have and don’t have. We will never be able to count the blessings of Allah swt. There are a lot of blessings He has given us that we do not know of.

We rarely ever see the wisdom behind things at the time that it happens. Months or years later, we understand (to a certain capacity) why that job, relationship, friendship etc. didn’t work out. Maybe sometimes we may never be able to comprehend why something didn’t happen the way we wanted it to. And I guess that’s ok, as long as we are grateful.

I was actually feeling a little down before I wrote this, so this is literally a reminder to myself before anyone else. Alhamdulillah, thinking of the blessings of Allah swt, I do feel better.

May we always be grateful and patient.

Names of Allah

Everyone is searching for love.
Forgetting the One who is above.
Al-Wadud is the Most Loving,
Al-Malik, sovereign of the day of reckoning.

We try to fill this void in our heart
That can only be filled with the remembrance of Allah.
If only we would seek forgiveness in Al-Ghaffar,
And trust the Most Powerful, Al-Qahhar.

Some of us search for happiness,
Hoping it will fill our emptiness.
All we need to do is turn to As-Salam
the Source of Peace, the Lord of Abraham.

We seek answers in those who are just like us,
And we fail to turn to the One, the Only, Al-Ahad.
He is also Ar-Razzaq, the Ever Providing
Ask from Him when you feel your world colliding

How do I expect to receive His Infinite Mercy
When I struggle to forgive those who hurt me
My Lord is Ar-Rahman Ar-Raheem.
How could I not trust the All Knowing, Al-Alim.

Al-Khaliq knows the nature of His creation,
Should we not worship Him in appreciation
For granting us security, Al-Mu’min
The Guardian, the Protector, Al-Muhaymin

Should we not be grateful to the Bestower, Al-Wahhab.
He knows all that you have.
And despite seeing all that you do,
If you want to be pardoned, just ask Al-Afuww.

Turn to Him

If the angel of death at this instant
Took your soul into the distance
Would you be happy with the life you led
Or would you want to change it instead?

Would you be happy with the decisions you made?
Or do your decisions make you afraid
Of the questioning that will happen in your grave?
Now you wish you had behaved.

Why do we waste so much time
Putting effort into a life that is only a sign
A test for you and me
My friend, you cannot flee
From the angel of death
Was it worth giving in to our nafs?

We say we will start tomorrow
But that day may never show
None of us are guaranteed the next second
Yet we plan for the next decade and,
Do you not think that you will die?
It is the only thing guaranteed in this life.

So whatever is making you sin
Remove from your life this thing
It is not worth being the reason
For your hereafter to be in prison

Turn to the Most Merciful, the Most Forgiving
For only He can add quality to this life you’re living. 

Wall

She built a wall. 

She wouldn’t let anyone knock them down, not at all.

She thought this would sheild her

From all the harm that was to occur.

She thought this was protection 

Not letting anyone give her affection.

She thought this would save her from heart ache 

But no one gave her a break.

She lived by the saying that went something like this 

‘The best way to not get your heart broken is to pretend like you don’t have one.’

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So she lived her life acting like she didn’t have a heart, 

In most cases, she convinced herself that this indeed worked. Thinking she played it smart. 

She pretended that she didn’t have feelings, 

Convinced that this would stop the bleeding.

Then one day, she started to take her religion seriously, 

The religion of peace which people wonder about so curiously. 

She realised that to be in this completely,

She would have to have a heart that was soft and gentle, not so discreetly.

Now she needed to be careful, and speak kindly to people,

Regardless of her frustration, she had to keep it peaceful. 

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Her heart was ice cold

At least that’s she told. 

She believed that putting on that persona meant no more pain

And that pretending to be heartless would keep her sane.

At this point, she had been through so much already, 

She just wanted her life to be steady. 

So please stop asking her to let her guard down, 

Cause that’s what made her breakdown.

She will be sure to keep those walls up

Until she feels that she can trust you enough.

The most dreadful phone call

When I answered the phone, 

I don’t recall ever feeling more alone. 

My mother’s voice on the end, 

“Your dad just passed away” she said. 

I walked into my room, pacing in the dark. 

‘How could this be?’ to myself I asked.

It was like nothing I ever felt; empty and hollow. 

Why did this happen, I never felt so much sorrow. 

And then if things couldn’t get worse,

My younger siblings asked me what felt like the most dreaded question in the universe.

“Did dad die” they said

These words I will never forget. 

The look on their innocent face,  

From my mind I can never erase. 

So much pain, so much worry, 

I was told to lie to them “no don’t be stupid” I felt so sorry

For the pain that was about to come, 

Was only the beginning, especially for my mum.

After that day, the house was filled with family and friends, 

Promising that they would be there till the end.

I think that’s the thing that made me grow up so quickly 

Empty promises that were made insincerely. 

From a young age I knew, 

Life was not easy. Why? I had no clue

Was it because nobody kept their promise? 

Why couldn’t they just be honest? 

Don’t lie to a child,

They will always remember the betrayal that made them feel exiled

Cut off from the world, feeling hopeless and tired. 

I was thirteen when my life took a turn, 

That’s when I knew I had to be more firm.

To protect myself and my family, 

Everything happened so rapidly. 

But more distress was still to come.

Then the funeral arrived, how I felt so numb. 

Now you lay there dear father, 

I miss you more, every year it gets harder. 

May your grave be filled with light, 

I pray to God that we will reunite

In the best place off all, 

Created by God Himself, named Janat al Firdaws. 

-This is the vague but true story of what happened when I found out my father passed away. I don’t think I’ve shared it more than a few people before as its quite personal. But I’m kind of anonymous here, so it’s a good way to get things out of system. Thanks for reading 💙

Prove them wrong 

They told her “you can’t do it on your own” 

“Watch me” she said, with a confident tone. 

She knew she had to prove them wrong, even if it meant they would no longer get along. 

So that’s what she did, she made the decision to move on and make a living. 

They stared and wondered how she did it with such precision. 

How could a once lost young girl pick herself up so neatly? 

Dust herself off and continue as if it was so easy? 

They were confused, “But how did she?” 

She said, “I told you, not to underestimate me” 

“I don’t have time!”

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I know lately I’ve posted a fair bit about ‘time’, and it’s because I’m trying to be more productive with my time. And there’s the issue right there; ‘my’ time. SubhanAllah. Who has given us this time? Who has given us every single blessing that we have?

Even my 8 year old students at the Mosque give me the excuse of “I didn’t have time” when I ask them if they have practised their Qur’an and Surah’s. How can a child possibly not have enough time? That would be them following the priorities and excuses of their parents and family, but that’s a topic for another day.

So what does it mean when someone says they don’t have time? You have time to eat, to sleep, to do your school/Uni work. Why? Because these things are a priority, and what about if you didn’t do them? If you don’t eat and sleep, you will not be able to function properly. And there are consequences for not doing your school work etc.

The same way people ‘don’t have time to pray’ shouldn’t have time to eat. Because just like the nourishment of the physical body is food, the nourishment of the soul is prayer. Just like you will get sick and die if you do not eat and sleep properly, your spiritual heart can also become hard, and even worse; dead.

If we don’t have enough time to seek knowledge in Islam, then we shouldn’t have time to go to school. Sounds a little extreme, however, the Owner of time commanded certain things for us to do, and if we can’t make time for them then what is our priority? This life or the hereafter?

The clock is ticking. I was listening to a tafseer of Surah Fajr just before, which by the way is a great reminder of time. In the tafseer, the Shaykh said that on the Day of Judgement, even the pious will feel that they should have done more for the hereafter. Isn’t that scary? The amount of regret we will feel for every minute we wasted.

This is a reminder to myself first. May Allah make us of those who use our time productively, and be shaded on the Day of Judgement, ameen.

 

 

Sins

​When I think about my life oh deary,

I must have kept the angel on my left shoulder so busy.
Oh angel, how did you not tire of writing my sins?
Until I repented, and a new way of life for me begins?
There were many, and they were not small.
But before I return to you ya Rabb, I ask your forgiveness from them all.
Even the ones that I am not able to recall.
I was so foolish, I can no longer stall.
Repent oh dear friend,
For this life will verily end.
Repent in the darkness of the night
To save yourself from a punishment heavy in might
Repent in the lightness of the day,
For you will not know when your time is underway.
Repent Again in the darkness of the night,
For you do not know when the angel will come to you with light. 

Time is of the essence.

SubhanAllah, what a wake up call!

Today I attended a weekend course Alhamdulillah. The course was called ‘Eternal Home’ by the Alkauthar Institute. It was a detailed seminar on the characteristics of heaven and hell, as well as how to reserve your spot in Jannah, and avoid being among the dwellers of Jahannam.

Here I was being okay with doing what I usually do, even though I know I need to do so much more. I am someone who procrastinates A LOT, right up until the deadline. But there is no ‘deadline’ so to speak, for ibadah (worship). No one is holding me accountable at this very moment, no one is asking what knowledge I have attained this week, or how many Sunnah prayers I have prayed.

Although lately I’ve had the intention to do more, I think today was it for me. Why are we happy or satisfied with the worship that we do? Alhamdulillah, we pray 5 times a day, read a few pages of Qur’an. And then what? Spend the rest of our day on Facebook and other social media outlets, or watching T.V. There is SO much we can do, sometimes I feel overwhelmed by the amount of knowledge I have to learn. The more I learn about this perfect deen, the more I realise there is to learn. SubhanAllah. There are so many areas of knowledge we can learn from, there is always room for improvement with our salah, our recitation, memorisation, our thikr, our deen in general. Even useful worldly knowledge.

I know that comparing ourselves to others is a big fat NO NO. But unfortunately, it’s something that we sometimes do. We may be content with reading a few pages of Qur’an a day, even though we have plenty of time. Why? Maybe because we are surrounded by people who do a lot less, surrounded by our friends and family who don’t pray, and we become okay with doing less than what we are capable of because others aren’t even doing that much. Or, we may even compare it to how we used to spend our time, maybe we’ve gone from reading one page a day to four. And we stop at 4, even though we have the time and means to read much much more. At least it’s better than what we used to read, right? Well, if we are capable of doing more then we should, without burning ourselves out of course.

We’ve become okay with being ordinary. Ordinary at everything, including our deen. It’s not to say that everyone should become scholars, rather we should work to our highest potential (which we often underestimate).

Why should we try to exceed our potential? Because we can never get back time that is lost, wasted, and gone by. Time is a blessing of Allah swt;

“The blessing of time is one of the greatest blessings that Allaah can bestow upon His slaves. Allaah even swears by time in some cases, as He says (interpretation of the meaning): 

“By Al‑‘Asr (the time)”

[al-‘Asr 103:1] 

– because of the importance and blessing of time.  

And the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) said: “Make the most of five things before five others: life before death, health before sickness, free time before becoming busy, youth before old age, and wealth before poverty.” See Saheeh al-Jaami’, no. 1077. “

Imagine all of those who have passed on. Don’t you think that they would want to come back to earth to prostrate to Allah swt. And those in graves that would give absolutely anything just to come back for one second to say “La illaha Ilallah”.

How much time do we waste? We’re going to be asked by Allah swt on that Day what we did with our time. Is our answer going to be sufficient?

I’ll leave you with one hadith inshaaAllah.

The Prophet (pbuh) said: “No one of you will enter Paradise by his deeds alone.” They asked, “Not even you, O Messenger of Allah?” He said, “Not even me, unless Allah covers me with His Grace and Mercy” (Bukhari, Riqaq, 18; Muslim, Munafiq, 71-73).

If the Prophet saw (whom is the best of mankind), if his deeds alone are not enough for Jannah, what about us?

A reminder to myself first and foremost, and then to you. May we be productive with our time, and may Allah swt allow us into Jannah by His Infinite Mercy, ameen.